This post is a fiction. It’s based on a tele series i watch. Just another excuse to write. Something that makes me curious. So i wrote this post to a fictional character i adore the most.
Dear Arnav Singh Raizada,
I do not hate you. I never can, i never have, i never will. This is who you are and i accept it. I can’t expect someone like you ASR to sit and reason out things with Khushi. If someone is expecting this they are expecting ASR to not be ASR. I know you are making Khushi go through hell with no fault but i still don’t hate you. There is no reason. This is supposed to be a hate marriage and this is what it is. But i strongly believe that not telling something as important as what creepy snake Shyam did to Raizada’s was khushi’s fault, even if with good intention. And now you ASR are fully justified to be angry on the part you know. Khushi cries when she is hurt, you Arnav have no such leisure. You get angry when you are hurt, you get angry when you are worried, you get angry when you care. That is you. I understand. Just because we saw you getting all lovey dovey during wedding doesn’t mean you will stop being ASR. I can’t imagine the pain and hurt you are going through. Your believes about marriage and love being sham and useless have all proved right. Its proved that no one cares or loves you genuinely except your ‘Di’ (and me too). I know your condition for you have been hurt by that very person for whom you actually let down the wall of iron that was so strongly fencing your heart. And people are bashing you, hating you because you are angry?! Uhh! That’s how you have been all your life. Eversince I have known you.
I love Khushi. She is strong willed person. And i am sure she’ll find the break through. She will make you tell her the reason behind this. She is Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada after all. Hang in there girl, i am sure Devi Mayyia can’t be that cruel to you for long.
I am by no means saying whatever is happening with her is right ASR, no! I am saying that whatever you are doing is right as per you. How can people forget your character? You are the one who released Khushi’s images in press just to prove to her that there is no God. You are the same person who threw her from your 1st floor office because she refused to acknowledge your help. All these people loved you then, din they? Why are they hating you now? Now is when you need all the support and understanding. It’s your ruthless, angry, unexpressive self Arnav that Khushi will change, i know you are not going to be rational and goody on your own, that will not justify your nature. Khushi’s love will change you. It was changing you before this misunderstanding. People who hate you ASR, dont know you at all. You are a person who doesn’t believe in God, because God took away what you loved most dearly, your mom. And yes at a very early age. You had been staying in darkness ever since. Just protecting the people related to you, to prove that God can’t make you lose them. Because now you are your own God. You write your own fate. No one else. No destiny. And this very antagonist self of yours starts to love someone, for once you started to care for someone, someone other than your Di. You, who never smiled, wanted to smile, just for her. You could die for her. Before you even realised she became your world.
Now what if you see your world embraced in someone else’s arms? Heck its in arms of the person you respected. Your jeejaji. Your Di’s love, life, world. What would be any normal person’s reaction to that? They’ll cry, no? But you can’t. You can’t cry, because only those who are hurt can cry and you had been making sure no one can hurt you. Not again. You had been blocking every entry into your heart. But this girl ruined it. She broke all entry barriers. Ruined the dark alley of your heart by bringing sunshine and then taking it back just like that. Still you cried, can’t imagine the pain you experienced? A pain so deep that you couldn’t control the tears.
All people see is that you forced Khushi into marriage, can’t they see you wanted to protect your reason for existance, your Di? All go gaga for Khushi who sacrificed so much and married you for you threatened to stop her jiji’s marriage, didn’t you do it? Didn’t you marry the one who as per you betrayed you? You are trying hard to hate someone you love. I don’t understand why people are so ignorant to your pain. People can see that Khushi’s family has boycotted her, is your family talking to you?! Your Di isn’t talking to you because you married to Khushi without telling anyone. The person you love the most is upset with you. Cant people see that?! Just because you are not sitting in one corner and crying doesn’t mean you are all happy. People can see you mentally torturing and bashing her, but i understand the double pain you go through after that. You hurt her but by doing that you hurt yourself more. You feel guilty for doing it which according to you, you should not feel at all. So i understand how would you as a person be dealing with so many contradictions between your heart and head. Even if everyone thinks that you are not being fair, i think you are absolutely right. I so get it why you don’t show any decency when you talk to her. I love it when you stand up for her in front of your family who don’t know that it’s just a pretence. I think Khushi knows you just pretend to stand up for her, you make sure she knows that you just pretend. Because more than her you want yourself to believe that you just pretend. But deep down you feel happy standing up for her, you just won’t acknowledge it. A man in your situation could have done worse and yet you have not done your worse yet and I really hope you do not ever. I understand you because in the position you are – in the situation you stand, you want to see her suffer and hurt – however much you do not like it – you have to make her suffer! I understand the turmoil between your head and heart and I can understand why you cannot think rationally (not that I ever thought you could when it came to family and Khushi) because you have always done the unbelievable to protect them, sadly no one sees this. I do not blame you for keeping your sister above because I understand she has been your mother, your father – practically the reason you are alive. If not for her, you would have killed yourself. So i want you to know that even if all hate you, i’ll always love you and support you.