The book I am reading currently has this quote ‘Everything in the world is maya, an illusion. The ultimate truth to realise is that we actually need nothing. Because to possess an illusion is as good as possessing nothing’. This was said in response to the offer of help made. What I want to know if it applies to attachment with people as well? Is attachment to people an illusion too? Do we still have nothing when we have few who love us, whom we love? Does even that equivalent to nothing? I don’t think so. Because if that was the case then being away from someone you are attached to wouldn’t hurt this much. If it really meant nothing, it wouldn’t feel like a loss when it’s gone. And we wouldn’t feel this happy and complete with loved ones around.
I asked this entire thing to mom and she told me that what it actually means is don’t let things affect you to a level that hinders your life and occupies major part of your brain. What she added was that to her this sentence seems to convey attending nirvana which though nice, isn’t the only solution to problems. If you are attached, be attached not just to good times but bad times too. Accept them. Do not question the roots of relation. You won’t always have light, darkness is inevitable for without it light won’t be that meaningful. True, isn’t it?!
Hospital. Place where lives are born, treated, given and lost too. One place where you’ll find varied emotions at once. Someone’s happy for they have a new arrival in family, someone’s sad for someone might leave them soon. Personally, I find hospitals a little too depressing. There have been a few times I’ve been admitted. During those times, except for the bloody injections, all was good. People come to meet, you are pampered. Nice nice. It’s depressing when someone you know is in there admitted due to some illness. You feel threatened to lose people, people you love, care about, people you never expected to leave. This feeling kills us even before the actual loss. Every moment is anxiety filled yet hopeful. Anxiety until everything is good. Hopeful until it’s all over. Hospital is the only place I think even an atheist might be spotted praying. But to go through it all is hardship.
It’s all suddenly very gloomy as I see my nani treated by doctors. It ain’t a desired sight to see the person who raised you, taught you, loved you is lying at the mercy of machines and doctors. Morose. It’s tougher for my mom, to see her mom like this. Everybody says, age does that to people. I agree too. Ny nani is close to 90, she’s lived a healthy life as yet. But that fact doesn’t make it any easier. Losing someone is never easy, hospitals sometimes make it difficult!
I hope you get through this real quick nani!
We all need love. When it comes to love, we all are end consumers. People say it’s love what we live for. We seek love, in any form. So did she.
He gave her attention, she loved it. He pampered her, she cherished it. He complimented her, she accepted it. He was like an addiction, she got addicted to it. He was the flame, she was the moth. He demanded, she refused. He changed, she ignored. He was rude, she ignored. He fought, she made up. She confronted, he shouted. She was upset, he ignored. She stopped talking, he didn’t care. End of story.
When life isn’t all roses, we hold on to the only rose we see with all our might. Even if it is full of thorns. Only to realise later, it isn’t even ours. We can’t see the truth because the lie soothed us or maybe we don’t want to see it. We choose to ignore the obvious signs of it all being a deceit with a hope it might turn good. It’s true, sometimes addiction, even to humans, is so strong that knowing they are wrong, bad, not worth it, we still can’t shun them. Don’t give in to the temptation, don’t fall for the cover. I suggest you share, whenever in such dilemma, share. Tell your friends. Take their advice, their help. Overcome the addiction. Difficult but not at all impossible. Know that you deserve better. And to all leeches playing with other person’s emotions, karma is a bitch. Wait till it attacks you.
But something to ponder. Who’s at fault here? Girl who couldn’t gauge the guy’s lousy treacherous character or the guy who tried to misuse a girl’s innocence and plight?
Mom. She never falls ill. She does, but we never really get to know. And if we do, it’s because our routine is disrupted. From morning till night, ill or not ill, she is a non stop machine that does all the work, even our own. They say being a housewife is the most tedious job, with no real holidays. Well, my mom works and manages the house too. And me and my dad are no real help to her, she never asks for help and we don’t realise when the work gets done. And this woman, my superwoman, overslept just one day. One day she wakes up late, because of the medication and it affects us all. There’s no milk, the milkman left as no one answered. No newspaper. Tulsi is not watered on time. Maid gets late as mom couldn’t help her like she always does. Dad gets late to work for he has to find his own belongings. Dad leaves without breakfast, mom still hands him an apple. She even wanted to apologise for the delay (what is she really made of?). She works at double speed and by the time she has to leave for work, all is in place. I merely told her to take leave and rest, her answer totally stumped me. She said, there are 80 students in my class waiting that are my responsibility and I can’t not go because of mere fever. When she’s back, I suggest she ate light dinner and me and dad will order food. She retorts that dad already ate out the whole day, so dinner will be homemade. And the routine continued.
I am simply in awe every time my mom does something like this. I, personally, believe that every woman is gifted with some superpowers by God. Powers she uses for all unselfish reasons. Powers that are way under-rated. Powers that the woman doesn’t accept she has. I am really proud to be brought up by one such superwoman. A superwoman who never falls ill. I am sure so are you 🙂